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I dont know where to start, Firstly I am 24 years old and have grown up with no mom or dad mostly in foster care homes where I was abused neglected and tortured, I went through high school working hard and graduating early to try and get on with life, However when I was 18 foster care threw me out into the streets with no where to go, Just wait things get worse, My girlfreind at the time got pregnant at 19, I thought it was mine and it turned out not to be. Bad thing here is I already signed for him on his birth certificate ( later on this would ***** me over ) Anyways, Her and I split up and she continued to see the childs real father I guess and I left. I went to the west coast to try and fix myself away from her cause losing a child that you think is yours and turns out not to be is crushing. Anyways I met a new girl out on the west coast she worked at me and finally made her way into my heart and started repairing it, I however was never welcomed by her family.. They would always talk behind my back, ya know the really snobby people… So going on with my story here, I began looking ******** for my mom why I don’t know I think mainly I just had questions like “why?” and stuff like that… well to my amazement I found her. Well in the short time of all this, My new girl got pregnant and yes it’s mine it’s tested this time. So myself her daugter and my own moved back east so I could know my family. Bad thing is it backfired… So now I am living with freinds and barely making it. I am paying out 400 bucks a month to my ex in childsupport and I only make 800 if that I work 24-32 hours a week I cant even afford car insurance She has asked me to give up my parental rights and alot more I am at a complete loss on what to do with her shes getting away with murder, For example while I was on the west coast she even forged my signature 2x and I have proof however they enforcment officer doesn’t care about the paternity test nor the forgery on the whole child support order, So until next year when I can get a court date I am screwed and so is my family. So on top of all this my freinds who I am starting to think don’t care about me anymore are making me pay 200 in cash for there electric bill and the only thing we run is a fan and a computer that is it, not even a TV. I think they are behind and using me Then we have to buy all food going into the house and cook I mean things could be worse but we don’t need to be treated like this, We never leave the first floor level of the house while there always upstairs. We can’t make any noise and we can’t say anything about anyone in the house. I am trying to work so hard at making my life right and I am failing so fast. Things are becoming tense here….. So tense my girl and I are arguing, I can not even go to her about how I feel anymore or it is a fight. I have missed DR. Appoinments so I can work I am losing this battle quickly and I feel like I am about to break. I do not want to lose my family that I have now, I have worked so hard to even be where I am at now, Despite having nothing to show for it. Now to me I have detoriating knee’s and a syst in my neck from where I was abused and shot by my mom when I was younger.. ” hence why I was in foster care” Anyways it has to come out or it will close off my throat but, I cant miss work and I don’t want to let my family down cause if I do either I lose my family and they need me. All I ever hear from my one female freind is “thats life get over it” well I can’t say anything to her about anything I want to say alot to her and can’t. She is of the old ways and stuck there. Now my car is having problems and if it goes down myself and my family including my 1 year old daughter will be on the street with no where to go. I work 12 hour shifts when I do go to work so mainly on the weekends I have 0 time to fix anything and throughout the week I am always running my family to the dr. To the store so they can eat and 99% of the time I do not get to eat myself. Honestly I eat maybe 1-3x a week anymore. I do not have good sleeping habits, and this stress is literally killing me I have clutched my chest before in pain not being able to breath and no one cares. What I need from the yahoo community is some serious help awnsers I dont want to be split apart from my family they need me and I need them is there anyway I might be able to get into my own home before I call the street my home and lose everything? we are on goverment aid but its not enough and they keep lowering it cause I’m working and then more of my check goes bye bye I am losing my will to go on if it wasnt for my daughter I would not be here, However its getting harder and harder to breathe everyday its getting harder to crawl out of bed and still try, Its hard with no freinds to seriously talk to about anything and them understand me. I don’t know where to turn or what to do all I know is ohio *****. The season in which it produces is beautiful however
P.S. I am no longer seeking my family that is what caused this huge mess was my mother was a flakeout anyways I am trying hard to not depend on anyone but I have no choice I have poor credit and can barely afford gas for the week anymore, I have to find a freind to talk with the people who I thought was my freinds are not, Hence to why I posted my heart here even IF I get some jerk awnser at least they know how I felt and its a little bit off of me
She is trying to get a job so hard, but employment rates here in the USA at least in OHIO are horrible. It is incredibly hard to get a job. All of her family lives out west as well.
The airforce won’t accept me, My body is to beaten up and injured to do anything. I am very good with computers, I went to school for them however as in the notes above jobs here in ohio are impossible.
@jordan

Yes we are on it, Shelters here split you up you are not allowed to be near your family and you can go to 10tv.com and see our news I wont leave there side I mean a kid gets shot in front of a firehouse with firemen inside this part of ohio is not safe I might be broken and in bad shape but Ill die protecting my family I wont let anything split us up. Your words are kind I really appreaite them I just hope I can get someone that knows something or been in this situation before to awsner or email me.
@ paige

I cant do anything about my ex until next year when a court date is avaible and as for the abuse currently in the home its not life threatening and at least I can be next to my girls at night. However lately I haven’t been sleeping but about 4-6 hours every 2 days.

I am twenty two years old and my girlfriend is twenty years old. We have dated off on for the last three years. Almost two years ago we broke up and she started dating another guy named David. She then found out she was pregnant. She told me right after we broke up she went to a party and she remember drinking to much and she had a one night stand with a guy there but didn’t really know him. So she said the baby could be mine or David’s or a result of this one night stand. So I stayed friends with her and I really wanted the baby to be mine because I loved her so much. She had the baby last February of 2008. It was a boy and we named him Branden. Shortly before Branden was born we got back together. Then a few months later I learned through dna test that Branden wasn’t mine son or David’s he was the result of the one night stand. This hurt me so bad, we split up for a while and she got back with David. I missed her and Branden so bad I asked her if I could be Branden father because I had already signed his birth certificate. She agreed and shortly after this things didn’t work out with her and David so we got back together. Then a month later she found out she was pregnant again and we both figured it was mine. The three weeks ago she gave birth to a little girl we named Emma. Then we realized the baby was early and after a dna test it turned out Emma isn’t mine but is David’s. I don’t know what to do. Then to make matters worst she told me she still loves David and she is moving in with him. I told her that Branden would always be my son and no mattered what happens between us I want to always be there for him. I love her so much but I feel if doesn’t work at with David she will want to get back with me. I just wish Emma would of been mine. What should I do?

i was dating this guy for 9 months before i graduated high school well we brokeup and we still talk occanssionaly but not much and i still love him and he tells me he still loves me yet he has another girlfriend and i still stayed true to him eventhough were not together i don’t know if hes lying or leading me on i’ve told him countless times if he really likes his current girlfriend i’m not going to get in the way because that’s not me and he still insist on keeping me around and i don’t understand why..well he hasn’t called me in over a week and i wrote him an email just telling him everything and he always calls to make sure i don’t leave him permantely and i’m getting tired of the same stuff but i don’t know how to get over him he’s not my first love and i’m sure he’s not my last but i really felt something more for him than i felt for any other guy and it’s heartbreaking he treats me like nothing so i’m lost and don’t know what to do? but i need help with moving on????????????????